6.29.2009

Time out

Warning - I get personal here.

I'm one of those blog readers that rolls their eyes when someone blogs that they are taking an internet break. How on earth could updating a blog be so taxing?

Well, sometimes it is and go ahead, roll your eyes at me because I would.

For lots of reasons, most of them to do with the brain cancer that my mom is having to put up with, I'm tired. I have lots of projects I love to do and want to do on an almost daily basis, but it's been well over a week since I've wanted to do them. I think that is a sign that it's time for a break. I'm requiring myself to finish up some samples for the July Phat Fiber box, but other than that, I'm going to sit on the couch, watch season 6 of the Sopranos (yes, finally) and maybe knit stuff... for me.

I realized that something had to give today when I actually pondered putting my wool stuff away in the basement because I was tired of the mess in my house. Yeah, hold the phone, what was I saying? Before I get to that tragic point, I'm going to see if I just need a vacation from the extra (normally fun) stuff.

Aside from being tired from the time I wake up in the morning, which has been an hour or 2 earlier than usual lately (and waking up at 5:30 just to stare at the window watching it get brighter outside is not as nice as it sounds) until I go to sleep at night, I've also found myself getting really peeved at things that I would normally find enjoyment in. Normally I'd smile at someone going out and having fun - for the past week I've just scowled at them. Normally your jokes would make me laugh or at least smile to be nice - for the past week I've yawned at the humor.

I'm hoping that just chilling out for a while and looking forward to my best friend coming to town next weekend will help me snap out of the funk 'cause I have to tell you, the funk kind of stinks.

Oh, and this weekend is the weekend to blow things up so hopefully I'll find a good buy one get 3 free tent and get lots of fun, bright colored explosives to light up the night sky on Saturday. If that doesn't help me out of my funk - I'm not sure what will.

SO - please don't forget about my blog if I don't post for a while... I'll be back with clever, witty, cooking inspired and crafting inspired things to say soon.

13 comments:

Melodie Ann said...

I <3 You

island sweet said...

it's so important to pay attention. you're taking care of yourself at this really difficult time and it takes courage to admit that you can't take it all. pamper yourself. i look forward to your return.

Tara said...

Oh dear. This sounds so hard and I'm so sorry you're going through this.
I think that giving yourself some time to just zone out sounds perfect.
Take all the time you need and your fans will be waiting for you when you return!

Michelle said...

I'm so sorry you are going through all this, take all the time you need and do what makes you feel good. <3

Michelle said...

Hang in there, Erin. You'll be back to your "normal" self soon.

idyll hands said...

Thank you all for your words. I think some time off from being obligated to do stuff is going to be just what I need. It's one thing to just do it because I want to, it's another to have deadlines.

Jacy said...

I'm sorry that you're dealing this this, and I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. I, too, have been there and it's such a heavy feeling. I'm sure we'll all be here when you get back!

Good energies send your way :)

Jace

ambika said...

It's funny--if you blog daily, and actually write something versus just posting pics, I think it's more that the task on a to-do list is more taxing than actually doing it. & of course finding things to write about can get really tough. Throw one personal wrench to every day life in there, and forget it.

So I understand. Take the time you need. The blog can clearly wait!

Sunny of The Beehive said...

I'm glad you're recognizing this in yourself and listening to it and not trying to just keep plowing through. And I hope the funk is short lived!

DancingMooney ♥ said...

Sweetie I've been wondering how your mom was doing, because you haven't mentioned it lately.

I tried to make my post on my blog a little vauge a (because it's not as professional to say 'I'm depressed') but I fell into a really hard funk a couple months ago, that truly scared me. I'd never really felt THAT depressed before, and it lasted for what felt like forever.

Don't push yourself to that edge love. Take as much time off as you need, because this is your hobby not your life.

And too, you know I love you. You can convo me any time, if you just need someone to talk to okay?

Lots of love.
♥ Janell

idyll hands said...

Thank you very much Janell, Ambika and Sunny! I'm sure I'll snap out of the funk and life, and blogging, will resume as normal.

Dianna said...

*big hug*

Tutu Cute and Moore! said...

I'm very sorry to read that you are going through a difficult time. Hugs to you and your mother. I highly recommend yoga for mental and physical well being. It, along with meditation, has helped me through some stressful times. Take care.
Nancy